What a week...with mixed emotions
I thought I was strong enough to handle my own problems, but in the end, I realised that I wasn't that strong after all. I broke down...
All these time, I managed to help myself by self-motivating whenever I am down, it usually works, but not this time, and I really don't know why. I don't tell my parents about my problems due the age gap between us and I don't want to make them worry.
I kept my problems to myself, and I paid the price.
I once observed those people around me,
- Some are working so hard everyday to make sure they make it to the place they wanted to go.
- Some are never serious, even in official occasions. Fooling around like children and making fun like fools, and yet, they are always the lucky one.
- Some are so well-discipline, and they basically practice the same routine daily, without fail, and that make them lifeless at times.
- Some are busy indulging themselves in their love story.
......and me ? Killed by emotions.
What's wrong with me? The negative is growing inside me.
This world is never fair and talking about second chance, I doubt they ever exist. I blamed myself for not making full use of the chances I have.
"Work hard and you'll certainly get what you want". I believed this, maybe in the pass, not now. Sadly, this is turning me upside down. I began to think, to complaint about life, to hate, to compare, and to be pessimist. I chose not to talk, not to get involved and those emotions are getting me over. I am almost 20 and still unable to do something different. I don't wish to lead an ordinary life. There are people who will constantly comparing you with others and each day is a constant struggle to me. Why am I myself but not someone else? Why am I... ? Why am I... ?
.THIS HAS TO STOP.
I know this has to come to an end. I will be wasting my time if I continue to be like this.
Keep your head up, boy. Have faith !
Instead of wasting my time having any needless animosity, why not I spend those time to improve myself and make sure I'm better than that someone each time? That's smarter.
I know I need to voice out my hard times. I really need to communicate more, maybe with someone that I can trust and rely on.
And to the one who tapped my shoulder that day and asked: "Are you Ok?", I would want to say 'Merci' again. A simple action, but it really matters to me, and it was just surprising. Merci.Merci.Merci. Perhaps, that's what friends are for, rite ?
Thank you if you are still reading at this point.
It's 1235 now. Good night !
Time to move on.
It takes 7 colours to complete a rainbow...彩虹也因为七彩而完美
Similar to life, how complete can It be depends on the way you paint it.
就像生活那样，完不完美就在于自己如何为它上色。
We meet up with people from time to time...在人与人的世界
They say that the best things in life are free and it’s best when felt with the heart. I say, Yes.
俗语说：“人生美妙的事情都是免费的”，所以呢，就用心去体会吧！
Being honest to myself and my feelings...给那心里话一些空间
I believed that everyone has a story inside them, to be told, to be heard and to be seen. Here is mine.
我相信我们都有着己想说、想被听到、想被看到的故事。我的故事，此刻开始。
